If I could talk to you in confidence life would be much easier, if I could trust you with my fragile emotional state all would be fine. I can’t trust you, as all you will do is hurt me again. We’re not a normal family though, are we mum. Continue reading →
Starting this journey to recover from my eating disorder has been the most indepth I have ever gone into my own psyche. It has taken me through some very dark places and I have discovered so much about who I truly am and how I got here. Recently I decided to takle my biggest trigger and perhaps the nucleus of my issues. It has opened the door to lost memories and pain that have held me down. That has led to possibly the biggest change I will ever make. Continue reading →
I learnt to recognise what emotions I am feeling and often use positive coping mechanisms, removing the reliance on binges. Only now and then, they are the only option and that is so disheartening when you have made such progress towards getting rid of them. Continue reading →
Check this powerful video out from Dove France. It hits home hard but left me with a feeling of empowerment. I don’t have to berate myself and I’d be devastated to hear much loved friends and family talk about themselves or to others the way I do myself. That bitch in my head needs to be gone, she’s no friend of mine any more! Continue reading →
When you have an Eating Disorder, Anxiety Disorder or Depression it is hard to see the positives and achievements. Personally I work well with visual aids in all walks of life, so it got me thinking….
what if we could see the good aspects of ourselves in physical form?
If we took a box of lego and placed one brick down for each positive thing about ourselves very soon we can see a wall form. That wall is us, our strength. It can be added to as and when we want and when we reach a new milestone. Those things are always part of us, making up who we are, so bricks don’t ever need to be removed. When you feel low, you can look at the physical version of how strong you are and where you can go next.
Yesterday some wonderful people who share this journey with me gave me words of encouragement and helped pick me back up. I feel better getting up this morning and while out I saw a little sign…. Continue reading →