Being in the grip of self loathing, inadequacy and failure is hell. We go round in circles trying to change things, to feel normal and able to step outside without the burning embarrassment our bodies create. How do we stop it? Who could possibly understand or want to be burdened with our crushed self esteem. That’s if we can actually articulate how you feel! Continue reading →
Having made a call to get some help for how I’m feeling, a weight has been lifted. I suppose that would be the burden of trying to carry all of this on my own. It puzzles me why we feel the need to try and cope alone with something so life changing. Continue reading →
I have been trying to stay srong, keep going and doing this alone. I’m not helping anyone, least of all myself! Having been caught in the consequences of someone elses refusal to get hep for depression, I had a word with myself when I read my lasy post back. My appointment with the GP is booked. I will go and get help and accept that I can do it all alone. My husband needs it too, I don’t want him having to deal with the consequences of me sticking my head in the sand.
If my smile is what you see, I did it well today. If you just wonder whether I’m quieter than normal, I got through a few more hours unnoticed. Not achievements everyone will understand but it makes the day easier for others around me to not see the turmoil underneath.