Tomorrow I have my assessment with an eating disorder clinic. Continue reading
Today has been a battle between feeling the need to do nothing and rest and guilt for all the things I feel I should do. I can only liken it to feeling like I am spinning in my head and feeling lost.
2.Bring Me To Life
8.Taking Over Me
10.My Last Breath
There are many songs that make me feel alive and renewed but this whole album is my absolute favourite. It has deep connections with my eating disorder.
A couple of evenings ago I sat watching tv not feeling quite myself. When messages arrived in my inbox, their contents filled me with overwhelming anxiety.
This is the first January I can remember where I haven’t felt the pressure and stress of trying to lose huge amounts of weight.
That came around quickly! It doesn’t actually feel like twelve months. A lot has changed in that time.
Christmas is such a special time for so many. We plan, shop and fill our calendar to bursting. For me it is my favourite time of year but also the most difficult. A true contradiction if ever there were one….
What a month November has been… Continue reading