Tag Archives: Sadness

This May Be The Biggest Thing I Have Ever Done For Myself

Starting this journey to recover from my eating disorder has been the most indepth I have ever gone into my own psyche. It has taken me through some very dark places and I have discovered so much about who I truly am and how I got here. Recently I decided to takle my biggest trigger and perhaps the nucleus of my issues. It has opened the door to lost memories and pain that have held me down. That has led to possibly the biggest change I will ever make. Continue reading

Back With it, Finally

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After a what has felt like forever,  I am finally getting myself back together. Continue reading

A Daytime Binge

Predominantly my binges are in the evenings, even at weekends. Today is day one of my plan to look after myself more and I binged already. Continue reading

Each Day Is A little Harder To Keep The Mask Up

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It’s completely understandable that I don’t feel ok, given the last week. It’s frustrating that this would normally be my best week, away from hormones. Continue reading

I Did It – I Confronted Them

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The day I went for my assessment was an emotional one. The fear of what may happen and general emotions of the day left me with a feeling, if I’m going to do this therapy, I need to do it wholeheartedly. That meant I had one problem I haven’t tackled…my narcasistic mother and step father.

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My Assessment With The Eating Disorder Service

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Going to that appointment has to be the most nervous I have been since my wedding day!
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A New Chapter- Never Experienced Before

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Tomorrow I have my assessment with an eating disorder clinic. Continue reading

‘Just’, A Word That Holds So Much

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We hear the word a lot ‘couldn’t you just…’ ‘It will be ok, just…’ ‘I just need to…’ Continue reading

Sometimes Being Female Sucks!

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I have had a very up and down week. Hormones are not a girls friend. Thankfully I am on the other side! Continue reading

Putting The Brakes On

Today has been a battle between feeling the need to do nothing and rest and guilt for all the things I feel I should do. I can only liken it to feeling like I am spinning in my head and feeling lost.
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