Just 18 months ago starting out to get myself better was a scary process. The level of panic I felt just considering a life without a diet was all consuming. The only life I could envisage was one where I ate myself into an early grave. In my mind it was giving up and letting food take over my life, my definition of the ultimate failure!
Todays posting seems to have fallen into three distinct categories: Depression, Anxiety and now BED. I didn’t plan it, I rarely write with a plan at all. This is my space for therapy and I go with the emotions at the time, they come out as I write. Continue reading →
Its not often that there is a gap in my blog posts but I have struggled to know what to share recently. Parts of life have clicked into place and others are floating wildly beyond my grip. I feel like a walking contradiction. Continue reading →
If I could talk to you in confidence life would be much easier, if I could trust you with my fragile emotional state all would be fine. I can’t trust you, as all you will do is hurt me again. We’re not a normal family though, are we mum. Continue reading →
Check this powerful video out from Dove France. It hits home hard but left me with a feeling of empowerment. I don’t have to berate myself and I’d be devastated to hear much loved friends and family talk about themselves or to others the way I do myself. That bitch in my head needs to be gone, she’s no friend of mine any more! Continue reading →
When you have an Eating Disorder, Anxiety Disorder or Depression it is hard to see the positives and achievements. Personally I work well with visual aids in all walks of life, so it got me thinking….
what if we could see the good aspects of ourselves in physical form?
If we took a box of lego and placed one brick down for each positive thing about ourselves very soon we can see a wall form. That wall is us, our strength. It can be added to as and when we want and when we reach a new milestone. Those things are always part of us, making up who we are, so bricks don’t ever need to be removed. When you feel low, you can look at the physical version of how strong you are and where you can go next.
Yesterday some wonderful people who share this journey with me gave me words of encouragement and helped pick me back up. I feel better getting up this morning and while out I saw a little sign…. Continue reading →