My therapy course is DBT (Dialectical Behavioural Therapy) this link will explain what that is and how it is applied to recovering from eating disorders.
The next phase of my step towards treatment has been completed, a care plan has been put together after monitoring my progress. The next step is to start treatment in a few weeks. Continue reading
In order for me to recover I need to share my struggles. Chat forums are an ideal place for me to be able to bare my soul and learn more about myself without the fear of rejection or distain. By using these I have ‘met’ people who are going through the same problems. We share stories, day to day experiences and help each other to unravel questions and issues.
In supportive chat’s someone asked me if I am spiritual? I would say I am and I definitely believe in things happening for a reason. That reason, sometimes only becomes apparent long after an event (for me anyway). So who knows in a few months I may be glad of the curve ball:-).
My plan is to get a new programme from my trainer and hopefully a physio appointment in the next few days. Tomorrow I will be trying out a new Body Balance class for the first time. Over the week I will also try Pilates and Yoga. There has always been a curiosity about these activities for me, so I’m quite excited. I have time to do one of each if I like them all and swimming on top too. So I should be able to continue improving my fitness levels and toning at the same time.
I really hope I do like the new direction my training needs to go to promote recovery. Today’s low mood and craving food is a red flag that I want to shake off. It doesn’t help that I feel exhausted with a cough and not very motivated. But whether that is a cause or affect remains to be seen.
I have slowly got used to the idea that running is off the cards for time being. I can say that without crying now, which is good. I don’t think anyone would understand anyway, It’s not like I’m the new Mo Farrah! In fact peole probably think I just make it up. I recently had someone ask me, how I’m not thin after running about with my energetic kids. All I could do was laugh and carry on. I hope my face hid my shock well enough.
I was feeling rather dejected on friday. Until someone said to me ‘you’re still a runner, you’re just carrying an injury’. That was such a relief and the way I need to be looking at it. My all or nothing approch still needs a lot of work I guess! I’m incredibly grateful for the support I am receiving online and feel like I’m making some new friendships, with people who understand the complications of an eating disorder. Not just for my own benefit. Knowing we can support each other gives you purpose I think. But as it’s via the Internet, the pressure of real life isn’t there. We can appear and disappear at will, depending on our mood and ability to cope each day (not to mention availability on day to day life). Even if i wake in the nihhg i can leave a message and someone can respond later. I’d definitely recommend it to anyone wanting support or looking for it. I’m on Mumsnet and find it an invaluable resource for my recovery. There is even a new section for eating disorders.