The Pendulum of Self Doubt has indeed swung over the last week, although the pace has slowed down somewhat. There is definitely a calmer feeling within today. It may not stay that way but I have some thoughts to try and anchor that pendulum on the side of positivity and confidence….When I look at friends work ( regardless of what industry) I can see them develop over time and add to their skill base. Also, if I were to look for a business, there would be different requirements and criteria to match. not every business would fill that. These observations need to be applied to myself. I may not produce something that everyone will like or want. Whilst I can appreciate many fellow photographers work, not all of them appeal to my tastes, yet my respect for their craft does not diminish. Also I don’t profess to be the best or even great, I have simply worked on my skills over the past few years and developed my abilities. In another two years that will be another great jump, or at least that is the plan.
So whilst I am very scared of what is about to happen, it’s no more scary than the disappointment of knowing I didn’t try. It’s not as if I will sign off any letters (should it not work out) as Elle Chapman failed professional photographer, now is it!