I understand things by visualising them. This is how I view my journey of recovery, as a puzzle. I feel like I need to discover who I am again, what makes me truly happy and remove things I have tolerated. So far on this journey I feel (on good days) that I have a sense of purpose now. I really feel that was the key piece I needed to even consider recovery. I have no idea what the other pieces may end up being, but I think trying to discover them is important to achieving my ultimate goal.