In order for me to recover I need to share my struggles. Chat forums are an ideal place for me to be able to bare my soul and learn more about myself without the fear of rejection or distain. By using these I have ‘met’ people who are going through the same problems. We share stories, day to day experiences and help each other to unravel questions and issues.
I know they read the blog and I’d love to say the insight and advice I receive has been massively appreciated. You have helped me grow stronger, see things more clearly and given me hope. I’d be lost without you all.
I meet new people online quite regularly. Knowing I can now pass on what I have learnt so far is quite a good feeling. Just today i started chatting to someone. I hope you feel able to join us on the support thread. We all have the chance to make this recovery together.x
Work has begun on my advertising pages for the photography business. It will be a slow start as right now I’m prioritising my time with my kids before the world of school begins.
I won’t be sharing or linking my work with the blog. I need this space to keep on track and heading for that recovery. I will from time to time take shots specifically for the blog. It’s a shame as I wish I could just be up front but the second I reveal myself I would undo all my work. Not doing too badly though…January 2014 I was at my lowest, August 2014 I’m setting up my own business. Dare I say it, I’m a little proud of myself.
The only thoughts my brain keeps brining up are negative ones today. It brings a feeling of someone whispering in my ear, reminding me of any recent negative comments that have come my way. Just in case there was any chance I had forgotten them. Continue reading →
The Pendulum of Self Doubt has indeed swung over the last week, although the pace has slowed down somewhat. There is definitely a calmer feeling within today. It may not stay that way but I have some thoughts to try and anchor that pendulum on the side of positivity and confidence…. Continue reading →
Right now I am struggling with the concept that I can achieve something….. Anything. Having taken the tentative steps towards self employment, I am panicking. What if I am no good, what if it fails as none wants to buy my work and what if I have to go back to being an employee? Continue reading →
I managed to keep a binge at bay last night. I’m eating healthy so in that respect things are stable now. It’s taken a few weeks to reach that point again where food has less of a hold over me. Continue reading →
This image shows with a fair amount of accuracy, how my brain feels. If you have Synaesthesia (like it appears I may have) it may hold even more significance. Binge Eating Disorder is the result of these feelings an outward symptom.