It would be very easy for me to stay where I am with my progress, coast along. It may work out ok, then again I may find myself in a few weeks backsliding and documenting binges again. So I need to keep on making changes and progress. Starting with why I’m currently sat in a supermarket carpark writing this post… Continue reading →
I no longer wish to be in the role I was given. I see through the facade you put up in front of others. Some day I can even laugh inside at how you show the world caring, compassion and support. It’s easy to do that but I know it’s not in your nature. What does come easy is putting people down, pressuring until someone backs down and even making things up to get the upper hand. Material objects and money are so important to you.
In order for me to recover I need to share my struggles. Chat forums are an ideal place for me to be able to bare my soul and learn more about myself without the fear of rejection or distain. By using these I have ‘met’ people who are going through the same problems. We share stories, day to day experiences and help each other to unravel questions and issues. Continue reading →
Work has begun on my advertising pages for the photography business. It will be a slow start as right now I’m prioritising my time with my kids before the world of school begins.
I won’t be sharing or linking my work with the blog. I need this space to keep on track and heading for that recovery. I will from time to time take shots specifically for the blog. It’s a shame as I wish I could just be up front but the second I reveal myself I would undo all my work. Not doing too badly though…January 2014 I was at my lowest, August 2014 I’m setting up my own business. Dare I say it, I’m a little proud of myself.
The only thoughts my brain keeps brining up are negative ones today. It brings a feeling of someone whispering in my ear, reminding me of any recent negative comments that have come my way. Just in case there was any chance I had forgotten them. Continue reading →
The Pendulum of Self Doubt has indeed swung over the last week, although the pace has slowed down somewhat. There is definitely a calmer feeling within today. It may not stay that way but I have some thoughts to try and anchor that pendulum on the side of positivity and confidence…. Continue reading →
Right now I am struggling with the concept that I can achieve something….. Anything. Having taken the tentative steps towards self employment, I am panicking. What if I am no good, what if it fails as none wants to buy my work and what if I have to go back to being an employee? Continue reading →